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Facing Reality: How I Knew It Was Time To Quit My Job

by Mika
Above:  A low-res photo of an incoming Howard University freshmen who just knew everything was LIT before LIT was even a thing.

This is not a personal attack on anyone I worked with, a supervisor, or even the company itself. These are just my REAL feelings that you can either take or leave. Welcome to astoldbymika.com 😊

As soon as I stepped foot on the campus of Howard University in Fall 2015, I knew exactly how my life would pan out for the next 4 years. I’d graduate “on time” with Honors and land the glamorous job of my dreams. From there, I’d move into my own place in NYC and prance around the Big Apple like a black Carrie Bradshaw, swapping out the Manolo Blahnik’s for something a little more fitting for these poorly paved New York City Streets.

Mika HU

Degreeed, Honored & Misconstrued.

Guess What…None of that shit happened but I’m still alive and well

Instead, I graduated a “lil’ late, moved back home (still in the Big Apple…meh) and landed a job that I could tolerate until something better came along. 1 year and 2 months post graduation, I quit that job that I forced myself for a whole 12 months to believe was for me.  It was the excitement of even having a job post-college that held me over and kept me “happy” the first 3 months of my “tenure”.  Sh*t basically went downhill from there.

The pay sucked but I wasn’t  a broke-ass college student trying to pay rent working a part-time retail job and bringing in a few hundred dollars a month from Freelance writing gigs. The main reason for me deciding to move back home was because the struggle was super real in college.  I needed to exhale from that b.s. …however, that’s a story for another day. Back to this painful 9-5 of mine.

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Don’t get me wrong, work was SUPER f**cking annoying most days, however, I did my job VERY WELL. I got along with most people while others often made their job tasks mine, dumping task after task on me to the point of burn out.

Listen, I tried to just stick it through but I was pretty much mentally, physically and emotionally drained. I tried taking a vacation and came back smiling for one day… the next day I screamed. For months I contemplated quitting then I finally got the lady balls to make my exit stage left.how i knew it was time to quit my job

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How did I know It was time to quit?
I cried…a lot…and that just ain’t me.

how i knew it was time to quit my jobThere were those couple of months that I cried every day asking myself “how did I end up here?”. I didn’t get why I was doing something that I didn’t like for a few dollars an hour and a ton of my valuable time. 

Getting out of bed was a big task…traveling was an even bigger one

Yeah I’d show up to work looking like “who did it and ran” as my Nana used to say. I would have no motivation to go to work, I’d just showed up so I wouldn’t get fined…basically.

I’d get stuff done…but at the same time I was not focused.how i knew it was time to quit my job

I no longer put the extra care into the projects and assignments I had. I got it done but it was meh…mediocre at best towards the end.

The people I vented to minds shifted about the situation.

The people that pretty much knew that I was planning to quit went from telling me “You can’t quit a job without another job lined up” and “Almost everyone hates their job” to “Girl, do what you gotta do.”. The most un-convincible people in my life were now rooting for my exit.

It affected other areas of my life

how i knew it was time to quit my job

I didn’t want to do things that usually interested me. Specifically, my creative drive was gone. Kaput. I didn’t really feel like writing, or doing my makeup and experimenting with my hair like I actually loved to do. Some days I went weeks without painting my face. I even put my blog on pause for about a month. Sh*t was real y’all.

Ultimately, I  value my peace of mind over a paycheck and that is why after months of contemplating I quit my job. No, I don’t have a job lined up paying a few more dollars an hour.  I do however have faith and a heavy stressful weight lifted off my shoulders.

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how i knew it was time to quit my job

Some people may think I’m crazy for doing this. At least I’m not getting any more gray hair or developing a bald spot in the middle of my head. This was actually happening to me, by the way.

Have you quit a job you’ve hated or are you contemplating doing so? How did you make the ultimate decision to leave or stay?

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Claire @ October Rain November 29, 2017 - 11:08 pm

I know I’m a little late to the game but congrats on leaving that horrible job! It takes a lot of guts to leave a job without a back up plan. I understand exactly how you felt! Earlier this year, I was on the same boat and I KNEW I hated the job when I was struggling to get out of bed and thinking of excuses to use to call in. I was SO happy to have that one day off (to go to another interview, haha) and just having that day off in the middle of the week made me realized how much negativity that place was bringing me. I absolutely hated it! A few weeks later – I quit without a job and without giving notice because that’s how bad they were treating me. I ended up finding my current job a few weeks later where I’m much more happier and surrounded by a fun, happy and supportive environment.

Mental and emotional health is so much more important than a paycheque!

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Mika November 30, 2017 - 10:07 pm

Thank you, Claire. And congrats to you. Sometimes we put our mental and emotional health second to a paycheck but that should never be the case. I’m happy to hear that you were able to find something for yourself that brought you more peace that that first job. Congrats to you again!

Thank you for reading <3

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